雨一直下

有一个童年，叫作张宇。

一首歌，雨一直下，唱着没后路的悬崖，不如把情断了吧。

心碎后就放下吧。

以后总有更好的。

不该 （周杰伦 A-Mei)

这首歌走心，句句到心坎里。
面临这样的抉择，一时真的不知道怎么办。
是该放手，还是继续？

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=_VxLOj3TB5k

假装我们还在一块 我真的演不出来
还是不习惯你不在 这身份转变太快
画面里不需要旁白 却谁都看得出来
是我情绪涌了上来 想哭却一遍空白

雪地里相爱 他们说 零下已结晶的誓言不会坏
但爱的状态 却不会永远 都冰封而透明的存在
轻轻飘 落下来 许下的梦 融化得太快
或许我们都不该醒来

你还是住在我的回忆里 不出来
让我们微笑离开 让故事留下来
放手后 爱依然在
雪融了 就应该化开
缘若尽了 就不该再重来

你依旧住在我的回忆里 不出来
我离开将你的手交给 下个最爱
纠缠与固执等待 反而是另一种伤害
更多更详尽歌词 在 ※ Mojim.com　魔镜歌词网 
彼此紧握的手松开 去拥抱更多未来

错过的时间怎么买 谁都付不出来
或许我们学会释怀 让过去安静下来

雪地里相爱 他们说 零下已结晶的誓言不会坏
但爱的状态 却不会永远 都冰封而透明的存在
轻轻飘 落下来 许下的梦 融化得太快
或许我们都不该醒来

你还是住在我的回忆里 不出来
让我们微笑离开 让故事留下来
放手后 爱依然在
雪融了 就应该花开
缘若尽了 就不该再重来

你依旧住在我的回忆里 不出来
我离开将你的手交给 下个最爱
纠缠与固执等待 反而是另一种伤害
彼此紧握的手松开 去拥抱更多未来

A random one

Time flies, again. I'm approaching 24 ... stepping into a whole new chapter in my life.

Anyhow, just changed my job month ago, I am hoping a dazzling future, better income to sustain my life. Job now sometimes make me feel like driving my life reversely. I understood it's what will happen when going into a whole new industry, start all over again, only wish my hard effort can help me climb higher.

Friends around graduating, everyone doing intern, looking for jobs. It's kind of jealous when saw someone got pay better, but I will tell myself that I can make it better, I'm confident that I'm accomplished. Reminisce of school, sometimes I think I should get the cert, but, I know myself very well, that's not my way.

Anyhow, I'm glad that I still having a jubilant life, just be grateful for what we had. Life's problem is endless, learn to handle it and we will evolve! Be sagacious!

To all friends out there, all the best.

给她的一篇博文

看着银行存款日渐稀少，我知道挨过了这两个月就没事。每每闹嘴了，我也对自己说挨过了就没事。但，真的吗？

我不是很在行摄影，但我总爱拿手机乱拍，因为，我想把我的回忆记录下来。拍了一大堆她的身影，她的一切。就因为不知明日会如何，而我想记住她，就拍下一切和她有关的东西。认定了就是认定了，尝试告诉她，不知她是否真的知道。

我，真的不是特别好。常因为工作而跟女友斗嘴，但我知道其实我的世界里，若少了她，一切都会像缺了一块。若逛街少了她的影子，若躺下少了她的拥抱……真的，不精彩了。

写这一篇，想记住她的博文。望自己努力记住她的好，一个我想陪我度过余生的女人。我总气着她，但我真的无意的。想记得从第一天至现在，我深爱的女人。

给她的一篇博文。

November updates

Just a blink of  eye, it's already end of November. I believe people should well know their strength and weakness, and now is the time to do a appraisal of our own. Rewind and see what we did for the past 10 month, try to gain some knowledge or experience from there.

With all the respect and confidently, I believe I did not bad and deserve a "B+". Now, with a month left, I shall work towards "A". Plan for 2014 instead, 2014 come with lot of changes. Internally and externally we should enhance ourself, prepare for the worst.

OK, good luck every one.  

October updates

October , always been so hectic. Work life balance, dont know if I practice it well. Once again fall to sick, dont know is it because of work tiredness.

Ops, sorry I missed out September, almost every weekend I'm attending wedding dinner, congrats to all my newly married friend, I think you guys will just ask the same question when met me. Ya, I proposed, maybe made lot of my friend shock due to I'm in this relationship not a long period. No worries, not because of my gf got pregnant, just I think is OK to get along with her.

Like usual, work hard to be live better, pray for the best prepare for the worst. Rarely meet my friend now a day, how you guys doing well. I'm approaching 22, people may wonder young guy like me, am I ready to married ? Ready to this? Ready to that? Believe to me, I am ready. For me, age just a number, what makes it looks different is just experience. I always believe I can do it while others can. I might not great like Steve, but I'm always trying to be the good one with my related matters.

OK, all the best guys. tata

Aug FY2013

Four month left for 2013 , time to have a review for this year . FY2013 , learned a lot , got more job satisfaction , more stable financial status , got a companion . Now , I think I should go to second stage , to defense what I have , and to grab more I wish .

Stand still and think , notice that lot of loss and gain , I had owned what I wish previously , portray my life had pass a milestone , working hard towards next target . keep growing !! 

Fight for our life , I never afraid of try thing that I have faith on it , never hesitate or delay to tackle it . Lots of my plan been turned down , but once I got one , I will strike back my unfortunate . 

Another chapter of my life started , good luck to me , good luck to all . 

Raya updates

Raya liao ..... 终于休息了.工作上的忙碌,让我忽略了许多事故.暂忘了许多人.

但,这都是我讨的,为求各方面的满足.我喜欢被认可,但别担心,我深知骄兵必败的道理.现在,对许多事的看法都不一样了,是我变了,但愿是好的.

还是一样,必须自我增值.把一切尽最大的能耐做好,为了过活,是打从决定不再升学时发现的人生哲学. 现在生活不一样了,决定了某些东西,改变一生的东西.我会做好的! 努力吧,每个人总该为自己努力的,大家共勉之,设立目标,就毫不犹豫的前进.

惜时惜人,做人谨记要对的人住拜得神 .

Short update .

Its been quite some time I dint write for this , was busy recently . July , meant that 2013 had passed more than half . Thank god all my stuff running on track . Another few month to go , hope I can show some different at the end of the year .

Confident , this year required lot of confident . Not only for my job scope , personal life as well . Time flew , hope experience come in . Nothing much to write recently , cause thing go smoothly , so less thing brain storm me .

Lot of thing came out a clear picture , hope I can grow faster . Meanwhile , I'm afraid , afraid that dont know when , I will be like temple run , game over at a very far distance , which take time to made .

Anyhow , just a short updates , I'm doing well now . Start taking compliment , wish me luck , it's embolden me .

Thank you.

无题

很快的，一个月又过去了。充实的四月份，令我深深的体会到人生真的需要有目标。一早张开眼睛就朝自己的目标出发，感觉真的很美好。

之前所追求的东西，该都得到了。可是，却开始担心自己的智慧不足，不能把东西紧握。

博文写了又删，其实心里知道，自己想要的是什么。一个信任与了解，无论在什么立场上。但我坚信及坚定都走下去时，多少人已想放手了呢？无论在哪条路上，都能看到人来人往。无奈感叹，人生苦短。

希望大家都努力，追求自己的每一件事与物。
共勉之。

Amitabha (sigh)

Once again , I fall in my life . Situation made my heart skip a beat of two , this few day just felt like having a butterfly in my stomach .

Again , so sorry to everyone , who willing to lend me a helping hand , I owe you guys a lot ! I have a long week , a long month . For the first time I hope time flew so eager . Damage been done , pray hard for the solution unveil .

amitabha .

无题

事情发生了，给我很大的教训。体会到什么叫聪明一世，糊涂一时。

我不说，是因为我知道已成定局了，不用多说，让人担心。

奉劝自己，以后多加小心。

early March post

February was gone , March had past few day as well . This year full of uncertain , lot of heart sore unveil .

Thing was gone , damage been done . Thanks to them made me hit the roof , my fist could brake the wall ! Sat down with a cup of Nestcafe , accompany by her , trying to get me settle down . I despite people mess up my life , but they did the most , what else can I expect from them?

Pray hard for a better job scoop , better decision I can make . I'm feeling likely on the roller coaster , turning up and down , at the end , will it be I been knocked out or I can be the one survive with smile ? Always remind myself wary of tiny mistake which evade me to get great result .

Word for me myself , good luck boy .

new year post , welcome 2013

2013 …… we still manage to see sun rise sun set everyday , world is not terminated , life goes on , people move on .

The last for my sharing was month before , still remember I was struggle about the same thing . And now , all back to the same routine , I got the others , instead of the one I wish to . Some time I wonder , is this what fate want me to take or just a simple coincident ?

Well , chinese new year just around the corner , I love the atmosphere !! leveling in my life , gaining experience but dint really know when is the time to level up . Life full with true or false , let time reveal the answer . Work hard for what I want , pray hard for what you wish and die hard to play !

Remember , everything comes with effort !

Happy new year .

无题

欲哭无泪，这感觉，真的不好受。面对他人时，也真的无言以对了。

非常明白这只是人生的过程，但，这么多次，扑了空，我，开始质疑自己了。

对人对事对物，抚心自问，我做得够好了吗？

我，祈求的，还是得不到。

心猿意马

心中的郁闷，可向谁倾诉呢？心猿意马，辗转反侧，彻夜难眠 。

面对可怕的未知数，我慌了。厌恶某些感觉，世事是否真的犹如镜花水月？

Still young

Still young ... ... people like to remind me on that . *sigh* Struggling to lay hand on something ! But , I dont know what do I lack of because I'm still young . I really hope I can give some impact , with my own strength . It's almost end of the year , how I wish , I can grab something . 

恐怖的

籍着这种感觉，仿佛又回到了中学时那青涩的时候。这种感觉，是 genuine 的 ！是打从内心发出的。只可惜，结果，也跟那时一样。感觉那么近，却又觉得遥不可及。每每看到当下情况，情景总把我的思绪拉回从前。

最近，不懂得，我想要什么呢？归根究底，是我贪吗？总觉得缺了些什么…… 其实，这是借口吗？其实，我想找的，都是那两样。给自己一大堆烂理由，掩饰自己的无能吗？还是怪命运的不堪？真的那么差吗？我，就不行吗？

我，希望就能偶尔扮演下坏角色，希望可以走捷径，希望会发生不大可能会发生的事。假想的满足，却不能让现实开心。看到的假希望，真的失望。内心交战，讨厌所谓的不敢与不能。唉……

漫无目标时，真的是很恐怖的。

无可奈何

现实里得不到，就沉溺在幻想里。睁开眼睛，感觉是多么的空虚。
真的。开始动摇了，开始怀疑自己，是否想要的，就只出现在脑海里？
多少次觉得自己愚不可及，多少不满及言语压抑在心里？
长叹一声，无可奈何。只能期盼，奇迹到来。
好的坏的，都会过去的，回首只得傻笑，抬头却不知面对什么未知事与物。

feeling sick

I'm feeling sick ! Sick of myself . Felt so dull recently . I need satisfaction ! Dont let me feel that I'm loosing please.

Struggle very hard , like a drowning men hope to grab something . I wanna grab everything ! Yes , I'm greed , greed , wish to swallow the world. Where am I ? The one lost in the haste , at some where very deep in my heart .Where am I ?

Am I not aggressive enough ? I wonder , maybe ... sometimes . Yes , I admit . My life is dull, I know myself very well , I know what I want , it's just I cant get . Am I not qualified ? or , it's not belongs to me ? I know what am I doing , yes I'm not feeling good. and , yes , feeling like a dumbo . I met it twice I lost it twice , does it considered lost ? cause I'm not even get a chance to hold it . what a waste , what a mess .

Anyway , lets roll the tape .Life should keep going. Silent my mind please. Shuffle to the next stop.