Monday, December 19, 2011

平衡点

learning to be compartment, just realize its not easy to be done. Fluctuation of my mood caught me in a grey . Anyway this is life, writing your own story and keep that in your mind.

失去也是拥有。只要懂得找出两者的平衡点,事情皆不过如此而已。
世人不为你而活,您也非为世人而活,全都只为自己。这并非自私,只是目的。

Wednesday, October 26, 2011

流年

流年似水,但愿生命能活像灿烂的烟火,绝不毫无意义,暗淡无光的跃过。
刹拿的烟火,虽如此短暂但却无比璀璨,能以照耀大地,又足以燎原……

来不及的的相识与再见,就流于心间,待回忆让我们在梦里结缘。

犹如紫薇星划过,转眼已是一光年,但穿插过星辰间,已留在别人心田。

在转站前,先忆当年,学习与道歉,催促向前。

Thursday, October 20, 2011

十月了

十月也到尾声了。回想起考STPM好像是刚发生不久的事……即将来临的,将又会是决定性的一刻。无论如何,好好走下去吧,人生将由自己去上色。

之前总觉得生活就像是个 formula 罢了。做每件事都会有个程序。
我们生活周遭所遇到的人与事就是 formula 里的数字。加起来就会得到答案。
当然,除了加减,也还有乘除。就这样数以万计的 formula 就出现在我们的生活里。

不管怎样,努力加油吧。

刚从公司的 team building program 回来。真是个难忘的旅程,这年头最开心的日子莫过于此吧。anyway , 回来了,也该重投工作怀抱了吧。十月,很 happening 的月份。参加婚礼做兄弟, team building 等。真的,很开心。

Monday, October 3, 2011

I am super hero..

Well , it's been a while .
and , it's already October now !

Through out the year , I did learn a lot. But , it's a gain with loss. Anyway , I still capable to get rid of it.

It's true , I'm nothing in this world but in fact with the nothing I hope I am something . bla bla bla , just craping around ... just cant fulfill my wishes , finding a way out. People do lay load on the willing horse but I don't mind be the dumb horse. Maybe I should have some super heroes as my role model perhaps ? haha , cant save the world but at least I should capable to subscribe something ! perhaps is time to get out from the comfort zone, I think I‘m going to abolish my hand . haha anyway good luck to everyone .

Thursday, August 18, 2011

Secret ...

Keep something in secret is not easy , be an actor is much more harder .

Dint tell out , cause I knew what's the answer , no need to fooling around.
Dint show's my face is just because we all grown up , both of us should know what to do and what will happen if we did .

Remain silent , let it reveal itself . I need no question .

Friday, August 12, 2011

Things poped out !

Struggle in my heart . Wonder which is the truth .
No sharing , think twice , make my brain exercise.
Found the way calm down , but I dint practice it well .
Right path or wrong track ? I'm still choosing now .
Make up my mind ! decide & do it now .
Make no regret , live well .
Life aint that fuckin' perfect , not easy as 1 2 3 ,
Use somebody and there's gotta be somebody out there for you.
Somebody save me ! second chance please !
Take my breath , who say you cant take my breath ? With that had made my soul weigh 21g.
Well , Climb the edge , make it the best .
Life no replay , dont be mad , make them realize what you have .
ok , rest up and fight it again !

Saturday, August 6, 2011

cheer me up please .

It's been a while . long time dint update my blog ady ...

Feel like something not so right happening . Made me a bit moody . I used to be so extreme , but this time , i know I'm extremely not in the form . Day by day , just feel something is wrong .
Sometime , it's not I dont trust others , it's just i think that you your own self is the one you can trust the most . So . lots of thing I dint tell out ... sometimes feel like need some consolation as well . haha.

As usual , i though it's alwayS just "I THOUGH" . I think too much negative sign in my mind , should clear out some . haha , IF , I could have the chance , I really hope I can own it . Lol , I did think like this lot of time before , everytime I came to this . hahaha

Someone cheer my day please ...

Friday, July 1, 2011

short update .

hmm, 今天选择用华文写这篇博文,因为觉得最近“华语”这把刀有点顿了,想把它磨一磨。

自古有谓:以铜为镜,可正衣冠;以人为镜,可知己过。最近努力探讨周遭发生的事物,希望可以学以自用,但却有些心有余而力不足。我知道我还未到那顶点,希望我那薄弱的毅力得以促使我向前。我知道万事开头难,所以我常常逼自己踏出那第一步。但谋事在人,成事在天,老天可给我这机会吗?或者人定也可胜天呢? 努力吧。

常常试着站在别的立场来想,但总不必预期的好。不在其位,真的不能谋其事吗?我不知道。唯一不变的是,我绝不会为了融合世俗,而改变我的思维。

生活过得还不赖,有些起伏。不过不打紧,成长总有些过程吧。

Friday, June 17, 2011

人生如戏

最近生活中多了些点缀。平淡中也能带少许期待,哈哈,简单却快乐。
今天又启事了,要改一改我的恶习啊!

人生变化无常,世事难料。碰到的好事与坏事就当作是经验吧。碰到的好人与坏人,皆算是种缘分。
我们的脑袋只有那般大,却能记住一生人的事迹,真是不容易啊。
所以切记,要记得每一个美好的事物与回忆,记得每一次的教训。
我们这一出戏还未落幕,戏路有我们决定,让我们安排自己拿金像奖,做个最佳男主角吧。
来,既然人生如戏,我们就慢慢细味人生吧。

Monday, May 30, 2011

WATS WRONG WIT ME ?

I'm a weirdo ... something so wrong is happening on me . I'm just wonder what is the causes bout all these . Did I stress up ? but it dint seem so ... maybe I'm just got nothing better to do or so free to twist my brain & torture myself . Well , what's wrong with me ??

Friday, May 13, 2011

life like this .

Hi people ! it's been a while haha . well , life is neutral so I got not much to share .

anyway , i had fill up my time with work & work out or try to build up fellowship with others . So i think i'm still fine anyway haha , thanks for your concern . Wheee , I'm going to outstation probally next week , such a hectic trip , whoa !! Everything is going smooth haha . I love life like this !

Tuesday, April 19, 2011

short talk . ^^

Well , hello ... just realize April come to an end . Again , I rewind the tape in my brain , did a comparison , try to earn something ... I found out I'm not aggressive enough to push me higher .

Anyway , I had make the very first move last week , noted thing aint goes that difficult . Nothing need to be hesitate . hahaha , after that , I set my mind : try it out anyway . Need to be brave to face our life . If even we , our own-self also dint also dint help our-self , who else is qualify to help you ?? DONT miss every single thing in our life , cause we only live once in our life .

Erm .... everything's fine . All the best . Work hard to live the way you want !

Friday, April 8, 2011

时间 , 改变 .

真的想回到过去 , 珍惜曾不懂得珍惜的东西 .
不过时间只是往前跑 , 回首 , 只有无奈的一笑 .
摇摇头 , 然后期待明天会更好.

时间,会改变一个人. 成长的过程中,变好变坏,就看造化了.
不要把人的性格形象定格!!!
整天嬉皮笑面的他 , 不一定常常快乐 , 当他不笑时 , 别以为他会轻易没事 .
外表酷似冷漠的他 , 也会有热情的一面 , 当他热情款待时 , 别以为他假惺惺 .
好像胸无大志的他 , 也有他的理想 , 当他开始追逐他的梦时 , 别以为他只是纸上谈兵 .
整天吊儿郎当的他 , 也有他正经的一面 , 当他正经时 , 别以为他又在开玩笑 .

而我,变得有点自私了 , 开始希望世界因我而改变 , 世人为我而活 .
扑了许多的空 , 开始会想放弃了 .

我不想讨 , 但我真的希望 , 夜里有人会找我聊 . 我会希望被认可 , 被需要.

Tuesday, April 5, 2011

update-d !!! ^^

对着屏幕良久后,许多画面闪过,却没打出半个字…… =.=

听歌……有些歌词,就是会楸着我的心,不知道为什么……
有些东西,好像都不能突破那格局,难道我没得进步了吗?我不甘,只好生自个儿闷气。

一时,我会忽然失去信心,突然倒下。然而第二天一觉起来,就要爬起来!
身上会多了些烙印,不一定是伤痕,或许是美好的回忆~
是累,也有泪,只是不轻弹。一步一步地走下去,坚信总有一天,我的日子会降临,我满意的日子!!
脑子不停的转,不同的课题,不同的问题,不同的难题,不像是问题的问题 …… 几时会下课呢?

hmm, 有些事我决定了去面对,处理得好不好?哈哈……

Monday, March 21, 2011

梦与梦醒时

我并不是很好,却常常希望别人能发觉我的好。
现实常渴望的,梦里常得到,却只有在梦里才得到。

籍此分享下小伙子的情感故事……
总盼着能见回您那天的神态,一瞬间傻乎乎的模样……昨晚,终于挽住了你的手……只可惜只有那几秒钟。不懂此刻你心里想着什么,不知你脑海中某个小角落可有一个我,所以我真想懂得读心术把它看透……

小伙子的事业……
对自己本身总有要求,梦里时能体会事业有成时,但梦醒后要等至何时?

学业……
无言---

Sunday, March 20, 2011

珍惜当下

我没有很多钱,但我并不穷。因为至少我没在天桥底行乞。

我不是很聪明,但我并不笨。因为至少我还识字,会思考。

如果有一天我没吃饱,我还算很幸福。因为至少我没挨饿

珍惜当下,日子会过得更美好。
偶尔气馁时,想想不比你好的人。
失败后,请提起勇气再往前走多几步。因为或许“失败”是您迈向“成功”的其中一个阶级。

每一个机会,请务必要自己去争取。得到后您会很开心;就算得不到,至少您也拥有过尝试的机会,与经验。只要您踏出了第一步,您已经是个赢家了。
做人,无需墨守成规。您做了与别人不一样的东西,并不代表您是错的。
自己喜欢或为了您的心头好,请努力追求。

Wednesday, March 16, 2011

describtion

I‘m not being self-centered , it's only I do have my idea but I dint share out . Your suggestion is welcomed but , please give it at the right timing . otherwise it will be annoying . I always tend to solve thing my own self , I will ask if I need a hand .

Last time I do hope to get some pay back when I had give out . But , now I realize what important is world still goes round , It's up to me how many do I want to give , and it's up to you whether you going to pay me .

in the other hand , I found out that I'm quite selfish . It's make my emotion change from time to time . Sometime I do feel envy , to those are good . anyway , wish me luck and hope everything will fine .

Tuesday, March 15, 2011

looking forward

We did lot's of thing in our life , with right and wrong , purposely and acidently . No matter what , life still goes on .

looks forward will make your life brighter . forgive those had did mistake , apologize regard your false .
Even a simple thing you did last second , it mean passed , let it be . now lets think bout solution , not the problem .

Decision made ... let's wait the result . hope it wont brake your jaws nor make you hit the roof .

Tuesday, March 8, 2011

给 NI 的

我想要,但我不想讨。NI,能给我吗?
自己总不肯说出口,却常常希望你知道。
好想问,其实你知道吗?
常期望会发生的事,总没如愿。

现实生活里,很多事,只能让自己内心交战,却不能对外表态。
做每件事,我都有自己的想法,别人赞不赞同,听过就算。
总是在听别人的故事,自己的那本长篇小说,却总画不上句号。

我,可说是有点我行我素吧。坚信自己的路,是靠自己的双脚走出来,自己的双手开辟出来的。
机会,可以自己制造,自己把握。然而我还是会希望有捷径的。
做每件事的动力,就是“为自己”。

每每回到家,卸下装备,抹掉彩妆后,就只会沉默不语。或偶尔对丁点不满的事情破口大骂。
每晚在家里,我就像个小孩。我,没那个权利,但还是想问NI,可以哄下我吗?

最后,想告诉自己,努力去追求自己想要的吧!加油!

Thursday, March 3, 2011

pending

pending ... ... ...
many thing is pending , mind stuck sometimes but luckily still manage to respond .

Suddenly feel like there are many eye and ear around . emotion should not be shown and emoness should be tell out . I'm still the way I am but i'm just rather choosing silent compare with arguement . I'm proudly to say out loud I'm fine .

anyway , I'm quite satisfied what had i gone through this pasted 20 years . No lost but still gaining , maybe just in another way . life still goes on , a remark in my life , to aware of loosing .




all the best .

Sunday, February 13, 2011

心情糟透

is this feeling what we so called "down" ??
if yes , congratz , i got it. woohooo~~~~

hemmm , 最近心情糟透了!!!!
压抑下来吧 …… 睡醒就没事了。

最近好像就是吃饭做工睡觉 …… 感觉上回家只是为了睡觉而已……然后一下子又要上班了……
去年好像也写过了,:我想要的,就是得不到 !!! 唉,努力吧!


加油加油!

Monday, January 31, 2011

暗自生气?

已经多少个年头了?一直选择不说出来……
其实我 guk 到很不爽的咯。不过我知道讲出来的后果,所以一直装傻。
不过不要摆那种款给我看!因为,当我看在眼里时,你会不被我尊重。
我就是酱自大,酱没礼貌的。 你,不过如此!
不是你罢了,另外两个也是!!!

啊啊啊啊啊啊啊啊啊啊啊啊啊啊啊啊啊啊啊啊啊!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
其实我很想要发泄一下的……算啦,去睡觉吧,睡醒就好些了。
整天都是酱,惯的啦!
一个两个都是酱的啦!

啊啊啊啊啊啊啊啊啊啊啊啊啊啊啊啊啊啊啊啊啊啊啊啊啊啊啊啊啊啊啊啊啊!
我要做的,我一定会努力兑现!

Tuesday, January 25, 2011

加油加油

好像很久没写blog了……因为开始做工了就慢慢懒得写了哈哈。
一半也因为做工时期,脑子没想那么多,所以没什么可以写的哈哈。

我,真的要加油啊!
做什么都好,要谦虚阿!
切记,胡伟杰,你只不过是一个19岁,再也普通不过的小伙子!

一些东西,只要试着不去想,就不会酱在意的了。加油加油 ……
无论在哪一方面都好,祝你好运。加油加油加油加油!

Monday, January 17, 2011

I miss her

hmmp , I started to miss her again ... T.T.
She's the one my mum baby sitting before but no longer any more . Her mum had pick her home ! She found her aunt help her ... lol what to do ??




This little fella is really cute !
I miss the way she laugh while i hug her or let her sit on the baby chair .
I miss the way she cry for milk ... haha she was so fierce that moment XD.
I miss the way she look at me every time i pass through her bed ~.
I miss that moment she will stare on us or the TV while we watching TV or playing PS .^^.
I miss the feel when I kiss her cheek . hmm T.T ...
I miss ....
I miss ... ... ... ...
hmm , any way , wish her god luck in her future . muackzzz muackxxx muacksss ...

Saturday, January 15, 2011

我还是小孩子

以前我常想,若以后我死了,为我流泪的人,会是我希望他为我流泪的吗?有点自私的想法,但无可否认我真的想知道。

一时我会想,我老了以后,回首看回往事时,会有多少遗憾,会有什么感觉呢?大慨只是会笑自己当时太傻,笑自己年少时的轻狂吧?

有时我在想,陪我走过的人,会陪我几久呢?几时会从熟络变得不再联络?他们,会记得我吗?

现在我还是小孩子,从我的说话方式也知道。很多事情还是不会解决……
不过我想我应该懂,要珍惜现在所有的一切吧~
长大后,再看看自己是否已长大了吧~
会有多少无奈的笑容?拭目以待吧~

Friday, January 14, 2011

Emo night .... down down down

It's a simple thing but dont know why it's so annoying me ?? Is there a place can let me express my anger ??? lol ... btw actually there are some others reason too ...

Acually , it has been a long moment , i felt kind of lonely ... not because of dont have people hanging around me , i'm just cant find someone really understand me ... i'm sorry , what I mean here is we are different kind of person but its doesnt mean that you're not my friend . I do know that you all are very kind . You all will try to understand me , make me happy , i'm feeling to thanks u all . is you all , accompany me all the way , once again thanks . but those feeling are really different .
知音难寻~

there's something I keep it deep in my heart all the time ... why ? cause i'm afraid that once it revealed , i might looks like showing off or whatever ...anyway , it's a EMO night .... ciaozz

Monday, January 10, 2011

好像是酱 XD 扮成熟

其实,我在想些什么,我一直都不想让人知道 …… 因为各人见解不一!
当我觉得可以跟你说或适合对你说时,我自然会说。
当你对我提问,我不哼一声时,请别对我穷追猛打。

或许你会说: cheh , 你不讲出来又要人家怎样了解你叻?酱见解不是永远不一?
对此,我自有我的看法。哈哈 ,(再讲也是没完没了)。
**若真的想纠正我 ,就找我沟通沟通咯 XD (何时何地,任何方法,可以)**

当我笑时,我是真的在笑 ;当我不笑时,我是真的不想笑了。
我整天嬉皮笑面,好像很轻浮酱,哈哈绝非因为我不认真,其实打从心里我是在打量着的。
或许你会说:酱子你要人家信你不是很难??
当我酱做时 …… 老实讲,我不 expect 你会信我。
或者是,我故意的,因为我自有我的一套。哈哈 XD。
为什么酱做?对每一个人我自有一番解释 XD 。
我只怕我讲那时会不小心中伤你罢了 =p 。(@#¥$^%&×好像是酱)

其实,很多东西,我懂,我也知道!
只是我选择睁一只眼闭一只眼,或者 ignore , 或故意没做出来 XD 。
为什么?哈哈 ,解释如上 xp 。

Saturday, January 8, 2011

真面目 XD

一直以为“这”不是我,但,我已逐渐变成那样了。
原来,习惯,真的会变成自然。

一直在下棋,决胜负之时会是几时呢?
草木皆兵。“险”阿~
一子一步都要三思再三思,累叻~
是时候铤而走险了,该再放手一搏了。
希望我能石破天惊,平地一声雷!哈哈
哈哈,其实我是个奸雄。
切记,兵,是不厌诈的!

今天,跟大家分享我最喜欢的四个字,就是:紫气东来
很有霸气,带点神秘,又柔中带钢的感觉。就像是君临天下,哈哈哈!
万事俱备只欠东风,真的希望可以用草人借箭。


今天,就让我 LC 一下吧~

Thursday, January 6, 2011

笨蛋!

我,到底在做些什么叻?
笨蛋!傻瓜!白痴!脑残!

(=.=
自作孽,不可活!
活该 !

Tuesday, January 4, 2011

回来了

昨天,我终于找回那感觉了!
对,我向往的其实就是那样!
跟他走了一整天,觉得蛮轻松的,因为我跟他其实就是同一类型的人。

曾经有个很好的机会,我放弃了。
现在,我只好等待,等待另一个机会的到来。
但是会是几时呢?我会等到吗?那时我捉得到吗?
我自己放弃了那样好的平台,还会有类似的平台出现吗?

而且,那时我的能力可及吗?(不知道)

…………………………………………………………

原来,心真的会碎的 。
脑海总不知觉的想起,心也跟着隐隐作痛!
我真的很在意!
原来这些日子,我是在气自己。没用的家伙!
暂且,应该只有他能舒缓我的痛吧?
那两件事,其中一件找到出路了,还有另一条路呢?几时会铺成?

Saturday, January 1, 2011

其一

我在这个礼拜里,其实一直很mang zhan 叻 ?!
很想大声地喊出来……很想有个沙包给我任打……很想要发泄!!!
但, 就算发泄了, 过后, 情况其实还是一样 !
这次, 我没爬得很高, 却也跌得蛮伤……
我不需要安慰 , 开解 , 鼓励 , 或教我怎样怎样的……
我只需要一个人默不出声的陪伴,
还有别人的认同, 这就是我的出路!
我知道 , 我 , 其实我还不是很有“料到” , 但我真的很想尽自己最大的能耐去试看。可是还是有阻拦 …… 我 …… 知道有一定的难度 …… 很多东西我也懂 , 但 …… …… ……唉 , 这就是为什么我酱mang zhan !


这 , 就是我非常在意的两件事中其中一样。(名成利就)
hmm , 我,还是个小孩子。