crazy holiday

哈哈，从考完最后那一张 chemistry 后，好像都没有停过，就是玩玩玩玩玩！！！

16/12 ，下午shopping后再去pasar malam然后到朋友家玩到半夜两点多。

17/12 ，一大早就起身，吃早餐后剪头发就搞到中午！（因为要等另一位朋友），下午有convo , 晚上又出到半夜回。XD

18/12，早上蛮闲的，于是下午又“班马”出去走街，晚上喝茶……酱就到两多了。真是光阴飞逝啊～

19/12，哈哈，去PD 咯！出到外面玩，打死都不睡啦！XD ,不过三点多还是要乖乖睡了=p

20/12, 直铲下Melaka…… 哈哈终于在傍晚8点酱到家过后就难敌睡意睡觉了 T.T .

PD 和Melaka的行程……去我的FB看照片啦哈哈，懒惰post XD. 今天只是想讲讲我的“壮举”，如何做到睡少少，玩多多。哈哈很简单，就是拼了命酱玩不要睡咯XD。

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其实我很想早点plan好然后找人出街的，碍于我在等一些人last minute的通知,弄到我都不敢早些预约人家。T.T
所以，朋友们，当我很突然的找你们，请别怪我事先没跟你们说定（虽然都没人怪我XD）……T.T ，因为我自己本身都不懂我那天得空 T.T 。

哈哈，就酱讲啦，又要找人出去了XD ， 至少都陪我吃个午餐 XD

转泪点

yerr , 那种感觉 ，回来了。
可是我又很矛盾一下的……因为某种原因……


erm , 终于考完试了……其实也没什么不一样，只是少了点罪恶感，可以名正言顺的不用读书了。 yeahhhh , yesh !!!! 中学生涯总算到了终点。^^

新的旅途已经开始了，在新的起点，接受考验吧，加油！

just feel like to tell something =p

OMG !!! My STPM mood had gone , 3 paper left ... =.= , help !!!!!!!!!

Actually I dint expect much also , so just let my faith decide it lah , I think it will lead me to the correct way XD . Hmmp , i do wish to have some shortcuts in my life , to success ... haha .
How can I describe my situation ? is my dream just a dream ? 0o , work harder to make it come true !!!!!!

WAITING IS TORTURING !!!!!! something keep poke my eye ... something just keep pop out in my mind ... something just taring my ear off ... the moment while waiting to fall as sleep is sweet sometime , but its horrible sometime . Can I skip this phase of my life ? this phase is way too long , haha but no pain no gain , its true . well , just be patient . actually life had getting better . ^^

I'M BACK

Its been awhile , com spoiled at nice timing and it fixed at this perfect timing as well hahahahahaha ......

First , i should say "welcome home" to my com haha , those day without you ,i'm nearly explore ! Ahak , its my time , hehe just to release my stress . STPM left a week to go , still doing last minute work ... anyway , hope my results wont be so ugly .

Can I shout ? "Of course you can" ... haha NO , not until I found a place that only left me alone .

constraining my feeling ... its not that easy ! something just cant tell out , what I looking after to is still the same , I still with my bare hand ... errrrr ... waaaawaaaawaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaa ... I'm stuck mannnnn !!!! somebody help me !!!! LOL only I can help my own-self ... after this turning point , i will be revive haha , lets wait and see ~~

haha , should cut it off right now ... it's making me more moody .... k , ciaoz .....

想些什么？ o0

其实，一直以来我说我想要的是真我想要的吗？
这一两年，很多人问我一个问题，我都给他们同样的答案。最近，我开始想：是真的这样吗？
如果，照着我想的方式去做，我知道结果真的只有如预测般坏，或者如想像中好。
现在，我终于懂了，喜欢就是喜欢，不喜欢就是不喜欢，硬硬来也不行的。

人生有几多个十年？
我的第二个十年都快要用完了。

我，还要那样做人吗？我一直都站在自信跟自大的边缘，偶尔会越过界。
自信，让我冲上去 ； 自大，会拉我下来。 呵呵，还蛮平衡嘛～ XD.
我了解自己吗？起初我以为我很了解，但我却不可以把这个问题答得很好。
你 了解自己吗？想想看，然后把你的优缺点写下来看。
有人讲，做人要 ： 敢梦 敢想 敢做 。呵呵 ，或许这是成功之道。

I'm still in the box , it's hard to jump out of the box. 如何以无限为有限？by the way I'm keep thinking I'm not the best ,but I must be the better one .

其实，“对不起” 我不懂敢说几次又或者肯说几次。“谢谢” 也不懂说的够吗。 我知道不是说了就可以，…………

今天，就是想到什么就写什么。 kick hor? 不过这又证明一点，我没头没脑，哈哈。

努力吧

还剩几天，要考试了。
努力吧。

又来到这交岔路了，决定了要往那条路去。就去吧！
hmmmm! 要有毅力 ！！

又是这样的早上

-删了-

又是这样，烦不烦啊？
唉……
哇………………啊……………………grrr ………………hmm
发泄完了啦 …… *sigh*

rude

Woa , it's Friday ... ... 1 week pasted , with no achievement .
and , I'm back , to here , in my place , pleasssse allow and be patient to my rudeness .
wanna shout : " @#$%$&^%&*^%$%@##@E%^R&^%^#)(*@&*)__$^%#@$"

hate that G0d da*n feeling .
alright , i know what am i saying , doing is pointless .
at least let me be dumb for a mean while , (even i am a dumbo all the while ==) . WT ... what am I talking about ... ... hmmp , just wanna give myself a F word . My brainless almost make me suffocate .

Wrote a lot , erase a lot as well . *sigh* , sometime something only need to be know by my own self . just simply enjoy typing . oh , such a poor baby with sad case XD , but i love to do such stupid thing haha .

2nd post in a day

wwwwwaaaaaaaaaaaaaaa .....

Got a strike by boredom!!!! Somebody help me !!!!!!
Sign in MSN , a list of contact , seem like list of stranger ... swt , just wanna find someone to crap , I know I SHOULD NOT do that cause exam really just around the corner . WTH , what am I doing here ? My hand and my finger betrayed me ! they keep hitting on the keyboard ! they should holding a book for me !!!!

Second post in a day ... so d*mn free ? but , honestly and seriously , I cant even stand for a minute like this , wao , really hope someone can talk to me , I know i do sounds like girl like to chit chat at anywhere all the time at anyplace, even comment on fb can make few pages of list in mail box ! (not pointed to anyone , and i do like to do so as well) .

the another "me" was revealing !!!!! iishhhhhh , i should control myself , i dont wanna be like that !!!! HELP , if 999 can solve this i do like to make a call ... hmm this should be a emo post , end up with letting me explore like a volcano . Should find something else to rock my life beside then Eminem . The third day already made me dull like this , cant imagine what will I be after 2 weeks time . And dont let me see any hammer or other tools , i'm afraid i cant stop my violent and break this square box front of me !!!!!!

Yam cha with friend ? not tonight .
Yam cha with family ? NO WAYYYYYYY !!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! Samething will happend , samething will they say ,I'm fed up of that . =.= i really scare will be like what he sang ... like a tornado meet a volcano .......
Home alone ? I really dont like to be like this , felt kinda lonely . Contact list in phone do have a bunch of friend but dont feel like to bother major of them , cause "I think" time like this they might have lot of theory or formula for supper.

well , ok ok ok ......
i know I'm not getting band 5 for this , really an essay long post .
*sigh* well , feel better now , should give this a fullstop ! "。"

blogging

嗯， 还是隐隐作痛。第三天了……
昨天又弄伤了腿 …… 真是祸不单行，还好没昨天酱上楼梯都痛，哈哈^^ 。

整天 , 都不懂为什么。
可能是假期太闲了吧？




还是……
想讲话 ，却不懂找谁？讲什么？…… 或许这就是所谓的无聊吧～
坐下来复习 ，又坐不定 ，读下走下 …… 都浪费了很多时间叻。

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k lar , bye ^^ .

心痛 （2）

哈哈，最近整天上来！ XD
哇哈哈，得空没事做嘛……

唉，好“痛” …… 昨晚到现在，这是痛最久的一次了。
就连吸大口一点的气都难……T.T 有钱有时间的话或许该去做 body check 看看。
可是又不知是哪里出问题，像是心脏，又像接近心的部位，又好像是某个接近胃的地方被肋骨压到酱……哈哈，算啦，过多下就没事的啦^^。

星期天了，该开始我的计划了！

谢谢妳 _ _ ……

谢谢妳。

妳给我的感觉，就是和其他的不一样。
这种感觉，曾经有过，但不及妳给的那般强烈。

妳，不欠我什么。
我，却希望可以给妳更多。

…… ……
这次，希望会不一样。

dizzy night

*Sigh* not feeling well again ... sore throat , running nose ... ... waaa I got a critical weih!!

Skip my bed time again ... haiz , never mind la , day after tomorrow will be my holiday , woohooo!
hope my plan wont ruin this time .

My life was in recycle , same process just going on and on again .
Life , i'm the one should control it , aint letting it control me .

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一命二运三风水

一命二运三风水 ，人一生的路 ，真的是定了的吗？

不懂几时开始，察觉了某些东西。
我的命 ，
普普通通 ，或许起伏较多点罢了 ……

我的运 ，
很好 ，从小到大 ，天资一直都被人发掘出。
有事时 ，总有人教我（感谢在我生命里出现过的师父） ，从不会泥足深陷 。
发生的事故 ，也让我逐渐成长 ，
见解越来越远 ，视野越来越宽阔 ，思维越来越好。

风水，
是个人造化吧 ……
我暂时觉得我处事的态度还过得去啦……
或许因为我好运 ，被教的较会观察与思考吧……

又是一个“这样”的早上 ，一样的事故 。
从小到大 ，造就了这样的我 ，不一样的性格 。

最近想回 ，发现 ，
我的一生 ，好像已定了……
我已经被赐予某种本事 ，打从娘胎出来 ，也被教到运用得很好 。生命的路途 ，至今 ，这种本事帮我一路走到这。

废话一大堆 ，总之 ，一定要捱过这个转角 ，一定要成功！
多曲折 ，也要走向自己成功的未来！

night expression !! (2)

Engine started and I dont feel like to stop !
问题还没解决完 ，也没什么睡意 ，其实不想睡的 …… 没办法啦 ，等下还要上学 ，睡咯 ……

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btw , met my old school friends just now , many thing pop in my mind haha . Miss those memorable day !

well , used 15 minutes on FB and blogging , should continue my stuff now .
I'm just write for the sake of writing . Chiaozzzzz .......

心的链

好奇心……
造就了我的贪心;

贪心 ……
造就了我的野心；

野心……
造就了我的上进心!

妳，就是那么的不一样。

strange day

wao , i think later the sun will rise from the west already XD !

Din't have nap today , haha n still manage to do little bit of thing after chemistry !!
erm , well , time on the line was cut shorted as well .

bravo , keep it on ^^ .

what make me woke up just now ?

熟睡时，收到妳的短讯 。
其实 ，我想跟妳说 ，对不起，谢谢 。
该开口道歉的 ，其实是我 。因为是我辜负了妳 ，再一次 ，对不起 ，谢谢妳 ！

waaa , its already August ! Been lazy for such a long time , all the while just lay on bed think 3 think 4 , or open up the book but mind flew away . *sigh .
Must start study or revision !!!! ARGHHHH ...

与家人饭后的感触

星期四 ，爸因为脚受伤了没去做工 ，晚上 ，一家人出去吃晚餐……
其实 ，我很开心 ，很喜欢一家人坐在一起吃饭的感觉 。

这一两年 ，大家各忙各的 。除了过年之外 ，大家都很少齐聚一堂吃饭了吧？

看见爸那一头不懂几时变白了的头发 ，我也是会心酸的 。大家酱辛苦 ，都是为了个钱 。因为，

有钱，就可以养活一头家；
有钱，就可以打油；
有钱，就可以供车供屋；
有钱，就可以吃好些；
有钱，就可以过好些的日子！

很多人以为我驾宾士，就很有钱…… 其实事实不是那样的！
我也知道他辛苦 ，七早八早要载我上学 ，工作到夜半三更 。
可是 …… ……

我不介意其他我想要的我得不到 ，我不介意把积储拿完出来 。
我，只希望有一个我认为温暖的家 。

期待下次一起吃饭的时候 ，希望那时哥也在。

TANK & 阿杜

TANK:
等待一點一滴　你對我感到安心
感覺朋友關係　有了新的默契
便利商店裡　誰也買不到
我們最想要的東西　只握在　喜歡的人手上

給我你的愛　讓我陪著你去未來
給我你的愛　手拉著手　不放開
就算宇宙爆炸　海水都蒸發
只願你的記憶裡　有我的擁抱

我的最大幸褔　是發現了我愛你
靈魂有了意義　用每一天珍惜
便利商店裡　誰也買不到
我們最想要的東西　只握在喜歡的人手上

給我你的愛　讓我陪著你去未來
給我你的愛　手拉著手不放開
就算宇宙爆炸　海水都蒸發
只願你的記憶裡　有我的擁抱

雨和天空也有　相愛的可能
望著妳的微笑　情不自禁
給我你的愛　讓我陪著你去未來
給我你的愛　手拉著手不放開
就算地球毀滅　來不及流淚
只願你的記憶裡　有我的擁抱

阿杜：
一开始就误会
关于你的倔强和不妥协
一离开就后悔
因为你爱的很坚决
我被缠在一些傻问题
譬如说用什么爱你
如果我就这样离去
我的心会碎的像玻璃
天天看到你
却产生了距离
爱越热心越冷的关系
也许这是我不够勇气
去解开你防卫的怀疑
天天看到你
是习惯和必须
不可能跟可能
我的心面对分离
oh~我才知道自己有多爱你

awaken in night

ou , felt so tire . aint going to sleep .
keep rolling on bed but just cant fall into dream.hmmp ... why ??

almost two year , some part of mine was live in dull .
candle was given now , who will light it up ??

time is flowing , must use it wisely .

well , will try again to sleep . nitezzz (or maybe morning XD)

不说了

其实我—— ……

算吧 ，haiz ........

沉默是金

最近，到嘴边的话总被我硬生生的吞回 ！！

讲也没有用，讲来做什么？？
不讲咯……

行动最实际。


沉默是金。

remix haha

yeah , i got my Bon-odori performance video clips !! watch it through my facebook profile lar =p

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很想学会读心术 …… 很想知道人家在想什么。
那天看到 『封神榜』 ，“三眼仔”要学读心术看别人的想法 。以前刚看时已经想学了 ，不知几时又不想了（因为知道不可能嘛） 。现在又很想学 ，因为 …… 就是想学啦 ！！

我不想 我不想 不想长大～ S.H.E
世界是如此的小 我们注定无处可逃 ～ 叮当
你的背包 让我走得好缓慢 ～ 陈奕迅
没有博爱的力量 有几好亦自量 不去用脑想 牵挂又会有几伤 ～ 侧田
生活的压力与生命的尊严哪一个重要 ～ 叮当

能开不开心都紧扣 辛不辛苦都接受 是一个成就 可惜我只想与一个人尾指一勾 也没有～张智霖

听篇最浪漫缠绵的歌 听几多次也落泪的歌 我才明爱恨因果 懂得心疼要恭贺 ～ 侧田
If you cry 我会明白 if you smile 我也会温暖 ～程晓东
那么多年得意忘形 闭起了眼睛 还以为握紧一块安稳的水晶 ～周传雄
我没那种命运 她没道理爱上我 ～ 陈小春

Bon-Odori ... woohoo

Ya , I had been to Bon-Odori and gave a performance at there haha .
Wow , I'm still on the cloud-nine weih XD .

Share some photo with you guys. ^^

ya , my friend and I haha ... ^^

Photo taken while waiting for our turn XD.

It was "people mountain people sea" there ... but unfortunately I dont have my picture which when I giving performance ... but its OK haha .

It already been a memorable experience to me . Hope can join again if I have the chance .

K guys , c ya .

bye bye ~~

心语

呆呆的望着屏幕 ，脑里一片空白 。
生活非常 程序 化 。一样的心情 ，一样的日子……

不知从几时开始 ，喜欢将喜怒哀乐都形于色！
不知从几时开始 ，想要有人陪伴着 ……
不知从几时开始 ，想把世界都踩着 ……
不知从几时开始 ，脑袋忽然想开了 ……
不知从几时开始 ，手 ，放开了 ……
也不知从几时开始 ，心 ，想倘开了 ……

生命的故事 ，曲折离奇 ，永远不知下一秒发生什么事 。

过去 ，是为了警惕现在；
现在 ，是为了计划将来：
将来 ，是为了带来希望。

语无伦次

写了的博文 ，又删掉了 。

有些事 ，很想讲 ，却又不懂怎样讲 ，怎样开始 ，不懂跟谁讲 。
连日记都信不过的我 ，又会向谁倾诉呢 ?
我不需要人家教我怎样做 ，因为我知道该怎样做 。我只想人家听我说 ，陪我聊 。
讲完 ，讲够 ，我就会收声 。

酱子我跟枕头或墙壁讲就行了嘛！

语无伦次 ，唉 。

改不了的事实 ，算了吧 ……

The one had lost

July 6th , up till now , nothing had done .

Tonight , just dont feel like to do anything , although plenty of works are waiting me .

trying to finish the puzzle of my life , but I cant find the lost part .World aint perfect without it , by the way other part are getting rotten . When do you want to show yourself ?

I'm still waiting , YOU , TO GET IN MY LIFE !!

我的十万个为什么 >> part 2

最近很想跟大家分享曾想过的疑问 。因为到现在都没有确实 ，正确 ，标准 ，满意的答案 ，所以就在这里跟大家 share 吧 ～～

小时候 ，看到 MIB (men in black) 的时候 ，我都在想 ：我们的世界 ，是否就像那卡通里一样 ？我们只是活在一个 locker 里 ，locker 外 ，其实还有更大的世界 ， 然后那个世界只是另外一个 locker 里的locker 而已 。

haha , 我试过寻找相关的答案 ，发现 ，我们的四维世界之外 ，其实还有很多的空间待我们发觉 。
何以四维世界 ？
科学家证实 ，我们的世界 ，是由三个空间维和一个时间维组成的！
至今 ，科学家已证实了第十一度空间的存在 。

瑞典物理学家 ，奥斯卡.克莱恩 （Oscar Klein）曾解说第五度空间的存在 ，他说：
“第五度空间是无数极微细的小圆圈，从已知的质量吸引力和电磁力计算第五度时空的圆圈圈 ，得知五度空间的小单位竟比原子的核小了十兆兆倍（10 trillion trillion times）!!"

第五度的空间已如此细微 ，试想像 ，第十一度 ，是何等天文数字？？ o0 .
做么提及十一度空间？因为那是人们试証佛光普照的空间 ！！！

有人 ，用科学解读经文 ，发现经文所记载关于这世界的构造 ，越来越逼近我们以科学寻得的答案 。多少个世纪以前记载的东西 ，竟和现在吻合 ，那 ，神 ，是何等高智慧族群？？

或者 ，就和我小时候想的一样 ，神 ，其实就是另个宇宙来的高智慧生物？？（如看卫斯理小说酱悬幻？？）
以下是我找到类似的相关网址 ，有兴趣就读读看相关文章吧 ～ 。

http://www.360doc.com/content/10/0605/09/1552147_31362535.shtml
http://wenwen.soso.com/z/q130744114.htm
http://www.hkfreezone.com/archiver/tid-209962.html

mine 十万个为什么 XD

woke up at 5a.m. today . Dont know why , just feel like dont want to sleep . ^^

Someone asked me , what make you regret in your life ?
I answered , I will regret for nothing , because if my past does not exist , it wont bring up the one I am now !
actually , many thing pop out in my mind on that moment .

Last time , I chosen to work , so now , my result really bad . Keep chase , chase and chase . Hope I can catch up ! But , working did change my thinking way 360 degree !! can say make me become more mature ? haha.
If i chosen to study last time , I think , now i will get flying colour result but many thing that not in syllabus i will have no chance to learn , and i really dont want to lose that !!
Now , i understand why the poet suffer , in " the road not taken " .
conclude , when you lose something , you gaining something at the same time .


Dont know since when , I do believe that the one I can fully trust , is only myself . Till now , i may tell you the same thing . but some time , 是我太高估自己，还是太低估别人？？

last time thought before wanted a time machine to back to past and correct my mistake but who will I be after that ?
there are plenty of thing I said dont mind keep pop out in my mind . lol , just a pretext ，to cover something .

In this world , many thing dont have an answer .
well , its an essay long post XD , continue next time lar ...

一日生的人 ~ 驕傲的領導者

This is what I got from a facebook test , at the begining just feel like want to see how those test craps . But i found out actually this test was quite accurate ... o0.
Let me share my result haha ... >>

受到生日數字的影響，你希望自己獨力和擁有成為第一的強烈慾望。你常會有建立自己強烈風格、散發自信和出風頭的需求。這種先鋒精神支持著你自己做決定和單 打獨鬥,也因為你充滿著熱力和新奇點子，你總是走在大眾之前。

然而，希望自己受歡迎和被人羨慕的需要可能會減弱你的自信心，過分依賴別人的掌聲也是缺乏信 心的表現。你應該要試著了解世界不是繞著你轉，避免成為太自我中心或獨裁的人。

創造新點子或經歷各種刺激有趣的冒險，可以讓你走向成功之路。

優點：有領導 能力、創造力、積極、樂觀、堅定、獨立、愛交際

缺點：傲慢、嫉妒、自大、驕傲、叛逆、缺乏自制力

幸運物：鏡子、書信、土耳其石
幸運色：水藍色、黃色...

haha this test let felt that really talking bout me. Well , I will try to improve myself !! >.< ...
and , my friend , how bout try this test out ? maybe it really telling the truth haha XD .

最近 ...

该做的 , 我没做 ...

为什么 ? 我不懂 ...

自己也不懂自己在赌什么气 ...

日子一天一天过了 , 自己究竟做过什么??

突然觉得自己很陌生 ...

算了吧.

好丑命生成.

feeling

Feel guilty , envy , inferior , angry , blank , confuse , boring ... ... ... ...

By the way currently having low EQ .
No matter how flexible the rubber band is , it still will have a limit to be strained !!!

凭歌寄意 (債) LISTEN to it

the lyrics ... try to listen to it




当天冲动不理结果 怎可分清楚
你怪我我怪你难以负荷
一息间的失控 实在没法躲
这记耳光已无情地绝望地剩下我一个

究竟你系边一种父母
有句说话老豆养仔仔养仔 你送佢去 (等你返黎)
系想佢做一个黄皮肤既鬼仔
定系想个女净系识得落兰桂芳凑鬼 你要继续投机 俾多多钱 (你要读书俾心机)
你唔要有你地D代沟 又pet佢去地球既另外一面
问你点收 但你可能觉得自己无本事 揹唔起家呢一个字 (家呢个字)
你唔俾佢呢样个样 惊佢学坏
但养佢又无Dum心机 睇住佢大 呢一个仔由细到大 (由细到大)
点都觉得自己父母 一世失败
只不过佢地又系咁样捱大 个包袱咁大
几时至还得清呢一笔儿女债

当天冲动不理结果 怎可分清楚
你怪我我怪你难以负荷
一息间的失控 实在没法躲
这记耳光已无情地绝望地剩下我一个

如果当初你唔系咁样既态度
今时今日 又点会行错呢一条路
我与你纵使有错难解开心里锁
假如你真系努力过 咁从头黎过
我谂 又会系另外一个结果
悲哀的心轻轻抚摸 越错误越逃避我

日日返亲屋企都系见到家嘈屋闭
你教我点样继续再留低 (唔想留抵)
同佢倾亲偈都系讲埋D钱银问题
有无关心过我日常生活既一切
点解由细到大都系自己解决问题
阿爸你为左自己抛抵屋企无再返黎 无所谓
俾人睇低 俾人当我系孤儿仔
同阿妈一齐只不过系为左发生关系

当天冲动不理结果 怎可分清楚
你怪我我怪你难以负荷
一息间的失控 实在没法躲
这记耳光已无情地绝望地剩下我一个
我 回头又再遇从前 落寞伴着落日 往昔家中的抱怨
我 愿为你花去力气 告别旧有隔膜 让我跟你在一起

成日叫我学下边个边个个仔 做份也野工
读紧也野系 我想话俾你知生我出黎唔系同人比赛斗威
唔好成日罗我黎同人地比高低
时间一转眼 点追都追唔番
谂番起细个又曾经作反出去玩 唔想番屋企觉得屋企好烦
书又唔读 工又唔番 玩到唔知时间 光阴一去不返

无得简 做人都系得果几廿年时间
我谂一谂 供书教学其实都好大负担
我地既出世就好似一张签爆左既信用卡
分期摊还 最后发觉回头太难
我谂都系时候平心静气坐番低 去弥补同父母恶劣既关系
呢个世界根本就无解决唔到既问题 最怕你自闭 自己越转越迷

3rd day of holiday

Well , it's holiday ... the 3rd day ...

Still live like normal weekend , maybe changes will appear start from tomorrow . who knows ?
Eat , sleep , play and bla bla bla ... that what normally i do during holiday .
Think it's time to change . haha

其实我满执着地哦 ...
原以为已放下很久了的东西 , 原来一直在我脑袋深处~

一直以为是那样的东西 , 原来并不是那样的 !
这几天 , 思路总接向那 ... 哎
是时间还不够长 , 才会导致 _ 冲不淡吗??

Hemmp , two week of holiday ... wheeee

家 人

today going to share something which has been keeping long in my mind ...

家 and 人.

家:
正如大家所见 , "家" 是那样写的 .
一个家 , 是由很多的人撑起来 , 才建立到的 .
如果大家都不帮忙扶撑着 , 那来一个家 ?

人:
人 , 是群体动物来的 !
人 , 就是一个靠一个的 ,
所以大家切忌自扫门前雪阿 ! (帮到就帮啦)

It came , EXAM

EXAM !!!!

PA and Maths had past ...
PA still ok but dont know whether can score or not ...
Maths ? Wrote the most ever in my life ... but I know many of my answer are not related >< ... still will fail gua ??

Chemistry on next Monday ...
really hope I manage to get 60 ...

Physics on next Tuesday ...
Many thing still dont understand ... if got 40 I also very happy ady lor XD

actually I really hope can get a CGPA 2.5 ... anyway
ALL the best , for my frenz and I ^^

失而复得 的心情

找回了一些东西 哈!
只是些歌罢了啦 , 虽然上网也能听到 但要那整个 list 的歌, (几百首叻) 很难的咯 .

做么酱珍贵 ??
我那个 list 的歌 , 都很有意思的 ... 而且每一首都记载着不同的心情和回忆 ... T^T...

每次听回, 都回想起以前的事 哈 XD...
for example ,
有些歌,会让我想起以前想念一个人时,到 相恋 热恋 失恋 ... 从朋友变情人再变朋友 ... ;
有些歌,会让我想起以前的老友 ;
有些歌,会让我想起小时候的我 , 家里的好...;
有些歌,会让我想起工作时 , 从懵懂至学习到现在 ...

这些歌 , 就像会唤起记忆的相簿 ... 不同的时间 , 不同的感触.

...

ok ... everything over , should start concentrate !

Told it to myself , but i cant do it I know ... I really not suppose to take form6 but now regret oso too late jor ...

Chemistry , math , physic ... all oso half tong water ... T.T
Lazy , ya I know I am lazy ... hope school can let me off for few day ... my heart is tire , to force myself to study

Hate it

Hate people who use my thing without asking my permission !!!!
It's not the first time , sometime even used up all of it !? ...
it spoil my mood !!
Hate that feel come while I want to concentrate ... ya i know it just kind of excuses , but my anger and my brain just cant stop thinking of it !!
Ya , you may say that I'm selfish or anything you like .
BUT there are something I really work hard for it , so keep your hand off from those thing !!



Hate people act like care of me ... please dont show that if you are NOT !!!!!!!!!!
because , it's disgusting . (although sound like a girl but i mean it)

心痛

心痛 ...

今晨 , 心 , 突如其来的痛 , 真的很痛很痛 ! 喝水 , 吸气 都痛!
身体每况愈下 , 伤风半年了 (已变敏感了吧?) ; 生气时有时又会晕 @.@ ; 现在到心了 ... T.T


另外,
我的 GATSBY 给他挖了一半去 , 气死我啦 !!! 很贵的啊 !!!
不会用就别用啦 !!! 自己都 "就住就住" 来用 , 他一个一阳指就挖了我半罐 !!!

哎 , 心更痛了 , 希望没事啦 ...

recent frame of mind

it's Saturday again ... time flow like hell ...

vision of the month :
" sleep less , talk less : do more , learn more "

many thing still not going as smooth as planed , but i will make smoother !!
Exam made me skip a beat or two , and now i feel like having a butterfly in my stomach .


Well , found that my EQ quite low recently ... hmmp wonder why ... but it really made me hit the roof , some of the problem really made me saw the red in my eye .
many dissatisfied but dint sound out ... ouch! it pinch my heart again ...

kept persuade myself : i do not really need it .
but , just not reconciled to give it when he said he want .

erm , by the way ... wanna watch "ip man2" and "iron-man2" ... waaa i want it , it make me hectic once think of it XD

加油 >.< ...

很多东西 , 我以为我了解 ... 最后却发现原来只是一知半解 ...

还有多少个夜晚让我打磨呢 ?

不用紧 , 我会尽量不让某些人失望的 ...
虽然我知道我做得不够多 ... 但我会努力的 !!

加油加油 !!!

emo post

No one can safe me now ... haiz ..
or i just need to wait till the end of life ?
wait till I get rot ?

Start hating myself for doing nothing ...
yea ... mouth work more harder compare with my hand ... =.= ...

I know what shall I do ... BUT I dint ...



lazy lazy lazy lazy lazy lazy lazy lazy lazy lazy lazy lazy lazy lazy lazy lazy lazy lazy lazy lazy lazy lazy lazy lazy lazy lazy lazy lazy lazy lazy lazy lazy lazy lazy lazy lazy lazy lazy lazy lazy lazy lazy lazy lazy lazy lazy lazy lazy lazy lazy lazy lazy lazy lazy lazy lazy lazy lazy lazy lazy lazy lazy lazy

Removed ... wrote

Money ... time ... it's what I always need ...
Friend and family playing a same role as well ...


Blogging
... wrote many thing ... then removed all of it ...
WHY ? =p it because there are something I just want to keep it in deep of my heart ... though to write it out but I dint , and only I will know the reason muahaha xp ...

yea ... keep crap-ing i know . Kind of feel sometime really dont know how to describe it ...
Suddenly remember that the one's asked me to write blog ... haha at first i did refuse but now then addicted haha ...
and now I think ... she's right XD

Plenty of time , my mouse will shuffle on the screen ...
cause of boarded ? or something else?

anyway , thx for reading ... and thanks to ...

Time flow like hell

Again and again ... rli beh ta han ady lar ...
I have to force myself to do so many (but result still the same) ... T.T

Not enough ? maybe ... must put in more effort ...

30++ day more ... i must show some different !

can I do so ? big question mark upon my head ... ><
btw , another problem still I worrying ... hope can come over it ...
5.30 ady , shall i go to sleep or wait one more hour only go to prepare to school? =p ... ciaozz

希望你们都读看^^

Really hope can make the MUET test once and for all .... still have SPEAKING on 10th May , must start train my speaking now haha ... must do it well !!


已经过去一个星期了 , 对于那事故还是耿耿于怀 ... 在这一个星期里 , 我真的改了 , 因为我真的希望不会再发生类似的问题 .


其实是否我们这个年纪的人都会有特别多东西想的呢 ?
因为长大了 ? 会想了 ?XD
有些人会开时顾及他人的感受了 , 特意把自己某一面封锁起来 ...
对于此举 , 对或错 ? 我不敢说 ...
或许一些东西藏匿起来会较好 , 但对于不能做自己的自己 , 觉得怎样呢?

有些人在自家时说 , 暂时/终于 可以做回自己了 ...
可是 , 有没有想过 一直在为别人改变自己的自己 才是我们真正的自己呢?



其实这不止是针对我而已 , 我周遭许多人也是如此 .
如果不再顾虑 , 要说就说 ... 会如何呢 ??
对朋友太坦诚 , 或着是不顾虑这么多 , 会被人说讲话不经大脑吧 ?
对长辈说出自己心中的想法 , 他们会说你还小或你不懂吧 ?

现在这个年纪的人 ... 都各自在心里衡量着每一个人吧 ?
其实我个人本身很喜欢别人跟我开门见山的 ...
若不好的 , 我就改吧 ; 好的 , 就维持吧 ...
所以有什么问题 ? 都拿出来大家谈妥吧 ...
反正现在又有facebook , MSN , SMS ...
不用碰面就没那么尴尬吧 ?
若凡事都任为自己有责任 , 都先陪不是 , 该无所谓吧? 又不会少块肉 ...
( 暂时不在其烦恼中 , 纯属个人思想 )

嗯 , 我任为每一个人都该为关于自己的每一件时负责任.
我有没有尽责尽力?
见仁见智啦 ... XD
不过 , 我还是没给某些朋友打招呼叻 ... >.< .
对于他/她们 , 决非不满 , 只是不懂 ... 哈哈
不懂为什么想却没做 , 很想那些你们能跟我笑下 , 给我好上台也好下台嘛~~ XD
很怪 hor?? =p
好啦 , 我该做我该做的事了 ^^

不静的心...怎么办...

另一次的错误,失败,粗心,大意 ... 我有点接受不了了.

昨晚本想多买份礼物给他的 ... 泡汤了.因为某些事故T.T ...
(ping plang), 好像听到内心深处传来的破碎声 ... 心碎了.

对人,对事,对物 ... 本以为可以处理妥当了,原来,我不行.

一早起床,也不想走出房间 ... 真的想逃避了.不过我还是需要回到现实.

电话响起了,传来的是不想听到的闹铃.
关了, 随之而来的是不想听到的铃声,不想看到的来电显示.

下楼,那些话 ... 使我心像被愀了一下 ...
你们的 "做么" "为什么" , 我不想答, 也不懂怎么答 ...
从以前到现在都一样 不想 不懂,
所以每次都选择沉没. 或许真的 于心有愧 吧.

之后,有点不想面对他们 ...
把自己关回房. 睡也好, 复习也好 ... 就由我吧.

矛盾加剧...
心 , 又抓不稳方向盘了 .

陀飛輪 ... 赞!!

Eason Chan 陳奕迅 《陀飛輪》MV

过去十八岁 没戴表 不过有时间
够我 没有后顾 野性贪玩

霎眼廿七岁 时日无多 方不敢偷惰
宏愿纵未了 奋斗总不太晚

然后突然今秋
望望身边 应该有 已尽有
我的美酒 跑车 相机 金表 也 讲究
直到世间 个个也妒忌 仍不怎麼富有
用我尚有 换我没有 其实已 用尽所拥有

曾付出 几多心跳
来换取 一堆堆 的发票
人值得 命中减少几秒 多买一只表
秒速 捉得紧了
而皮肤竟偷偷松了
为何用到尽了 至知哪样紧要

劳力是 无止境
活著多好 不需要 靠物证
也不以高薪 高职 高级品 搏尊敬 wo~
就算搏到 伯爵那地位 和萧邦的隽永
卖了任性 日拼夜拼 忘掉了为甚麼高兴

曾付出 几多心跳
来换取 一堆堆 的发票
人值得 命中减少几秒 多买一只表
秒速 捉得紧了
而皮肤竟偷偷松了
为何用到尽了 至知哪样紧要

记住那 关於光阴的教训
回头走 天已暗
你献出了十吋 时和分
可有换到十吋金

还剩低 几多心跳
人面胀 水晶表面对照
连自己 亦都分析不了 得到多与少
也许 真的疯了
那个倒影 多麼可笑
灵魂若变卖了 上链也没心跳

银或金 都不紧要
谁造机芯 一样了
计划了 照做了 得到了 时间却太少 no~

还剩低 几多心跳
还在数 赶不及了
昂贵是这刻 我觉悟了

在时计裏 看破一生 渺渺

超喜欢这首歌,歌词也很有意思 .... 或许因为自己的时间也很有限的关系吧,哈

心雨后的心语

生活忙碌,最近睡少很多了,也运动少了很多...但...其实在忙碌的生活里,只要懂得享受苦里的乐,就能乐此不疲,乐在其中啦^^

最近生活比较充实了.勤与戏都共处了哈哈....XD
人与人之间,就随心吧 ...
是与非,过了的就让它随风而去吧,以后的就对得起良心就好咯 ... ^^

My life ...

its already april ... i'm still feel like the count down for last year was just only past ... time flow really fast ... how will my life be?? I'm still blur-ing ... == ...

well, many thing comes around and goes around ... my life still preceding , without bothering bout i like it or not ...

this is my life ...
ok ... time to do what i should do, hope that i will do it, haha

Back to home ...

知道自己懒就勤劳点咯 ... XD

Well , back to home ... same as back to dizzy haha once step in to the house mum nag bout same thing again lol , how i wish that someday they can cut off this ...

Stayed overnight at friend house really made me felt a bit better haha , sound weird right ?? how come there will be someone dont like to stay at home XD ... but that my feeling that cant be deny.I found out that be myself is really a great feeling , kind of happiness at there although that just a simple life ... 2 days stayed at there , found my passion to study again ^^ .

By the way, met someone and talk a bit with him ... he made me found another path of life haha ... more option can be choose in the future , thx ya.

Got some solution for some of my problem already, now I realize there still have light in the darkness , the world aint that dull ....

haha , a long post =p

yesterday n today .... linked by emo

Not really happy ... same problem keep appeal ... when will all this stop???

feel like really confusing , the road i taken , which path do you link to ???

by the way , somebody though he's smart asked me a stupid question , don't try to act smart while you are acting silly k ??? == you made me mad and strongly dislike bout you ...


Arrrrgh even stayed at home also didn't feel really safe ... is there somewhere more belong to me ???



hope someone can have her spotlight on me ... and ... ... ... ...


....................that for yesterday......................

today , found that i'm kinda like "budak-budak" ... =p

By the way, same thing happened again ... they will never fed up for that ... i wonder why *sigh*

是我错啦K ??? T.T
千百万句对不起却没有一个儞补的行动... ==

忽然想找个地方可以然我大声呐喊 ...
想发泄发泄发泄发泄发泄发泄...

有时也想找个人聊天或是倾诉 ...

难以说出口的...

身体出了些状况 ...嘴里肿了一块, 咬不到东西 ==

其实很害怕 ... 怕会酱下去,或很难医好比, 因为之前也是酱,然后就不了了之了不得... 现在更糟,吃不到东西了 O0 ...


真的很懒啦 ... 借口一大堆,今年要怎样熬啊?????
光是心动却没有行动!!!!


想要些推动力 , 哎救命啊 ...........


今年总觉得有些不妥... 可又说不出 ... 总觉得那里怪怪地...见到人想打招呼却只是呆呆望着人家,
看着人家好像想讲些东西或是给个微笑,却又没表态....
到最后,应该已给人家一个"怪人"的感觉了吧 ,
或者是,"猜你不透","难沟通"的感觉了吧???
或者人家都会认为我只可以当个"hi-bye friend" 吧 .... ==

low EQ

EQ getting low and low ... IQ not even grow a little bit *sigh* ...


Today I'm sick , don't know is lucky or unlucky @.@ ... hehe escape from the math test today but felt a bit guilty ...

Feel like hating myself , for some reason ...

tomorrow is going to sit for chemistry test ... wish me luck lor

lazy

argh ... kinda lazy now a day "sob sob" , *sigh* ... lazy lazy n lazy

以人为镜!!

以铜为镜,可整衣冠;
以人为镜,可知己过.

这句话一点也没错...
又是个夜深人静的夜晚.凭歌寄意时...想了某些人和事,想回自己...

嗯,一直警惕自己不可步别人后尘,不可以重蹈覆辙 ... 但是一时还是会大意,或忘记 ... 不能再这样下去了!!! >.< ... 唉~~

其实我也有想学的东西地阿 ... 想过要学钢琴或吉他 ... 但到现在还是原地踏步 lol 骨头都僵硬了啦 >.< ...

要改呵伟杰!!! =p

worries

school reopen tomorrow ... aint feel like to back to school ... *sigh*

@.@ not really like the feeling when I been beaten ... but I'm really really lazy ... wish to get something but didnt put effort on it ... arghh

a bit worry bout myself ... will i success at the very end???

eshhh, must work more harder ar >.< ...
waste whole week of CNY ... lol
time flew away fast .... do I manage to catch up in the end ??? =.=

是夜...

发现到我有点不一样了 ... 是环境的影响吗??我不知道...

路还很长啊 ... 还有好一大段的时间才会到达下个里程碑 ...

脾气越来越爆燥....

又有点不知如何是好似的 ... 唉~
其实我在为了什么而做着什么呢????

I think its a nice song ... listen to it

I not really like malay song actualy but I just love this song for no reason haha...
try to listen it and hope you all like it as well^^

Belaian Jiwa

Seindah Tiada Lagi Kau Kuingatkan
Sayang Kau Hilang
Menanti Biar Sampai Akhir Hayatku Di Dunia Ini

Kau Tahu Betapa Kusayang Padamu
Hanya Bidadari Sebagai Ganti
Hanya Takdir Menentukan Ia
Oh Belaian Jiwa

Oh Angin Sampaikan Laguku Padanya
Yang Sedih Pilu
Terimalah Laguku Jadi Teman Hidupmu
Untuk Selamanya

Kau Tahu Betapa Kusayang Padamu
Hanya Bidadari Sebagai Ganti
Hanya Takdir Menentukan Ia
Oh Belaian Jiwa

初一的感触 ==

大年初一,工作了整天有点累,又有点像不舒服... 但还想上来写博文^^


新的一年,有些习惯该改掉吧?? 例如说话的方式...处事的态度??


讲声恭喜发财前改先说声对不起吧?
一时,我真的好像有点傲慢 ...
一时,我又有点反应迟钝,讲些过头话或做些过火的东西...


今年年初一,就有种人面不知何处去,桃花依旧笑春风的感觉...
世事无常,变幻莫测 ...

还有些不敢讲,不会讲的,就不用写啦 ... 新年快乐咯

CNY

woohooo finally CNY came hahaha ... but will be working for the first 2 day ^^ ... well got a new shirt and pants from my brother there XD ... really like it ^^

Talk about just now , the reunion dinner ... wow it sooo amazing , owesome , and bravo XD .... LIKE the food sooooo much hehe but not really like the situation at there cause felt so uncomfortable with them ... lol wonder why ...

well , its time to sleep ... happy chinese new year ^^

09-02-2010

Well ... been emo tonight ... some of my friend tough me 2 blogging while emo , lol in some way it may help ... maybe??

Let find out why .... just i dont like all this like fake one ... its just like people said even "beLIEve" also hiding a "LIE" ... 2010 already ... i wonder when will I manage to do that ... 10 or 20 years later ??? or its my fate to suffer for it ???

this question had kept asking from the other ... even my own self also dont know the answer ... it is "why are you taking form 6????" ahak!!! you all got me .... well, in front of other i'm just like a ordinary boy ... but who know the "me" deep inside my heart ??? but dont feel like wanna tell out the problem ... *sigh*

0158 07.02.2010

Just finish watch IT !! really touching T^T ... IT though me to appreciate friend, hold the time ... something will always live in our memories ...

Well this few day just felt weird ... is that what I really want?? o.0 I wonder ...never mind , i will find out the answer ... *sigh* but what should i do leh??? ... maybe this is my fate ~

03-02-2010 ...

wheee won a medal for the road run ^^ got no.5 !!(today not in situation, halfway some more a bit saikit perut pulak , worse than practice T.T ) although that not what I expected ... but still statisfied with it haha .... happy happy ^^ finally i granted 1 of my wishes , still got 1 more to go ... dont know whether can get it or not =.=

actually , i got lots of thing that i wish to get it ... hope i can success lah ....

虽然有一点点的不甘心,但也很满足了...毕竟是场比赛嘛

ANGER

Hey, i hate people say me bout that i did do NOTHING !!!!! why you keep asking me do this do that?? actually i dont like at all!!!!you all did said its mine choice but you all had force me to do so ! lol ... i dont do cause i dont like it ! STOP ordering me ! i'm not a PUPPET !!! hate you all , how long will i take to change this situation ?? what should come first , i will measure it my own self !! u had made me mad !!

Beside , i dont like to ruin MY plan or my life !!! DO NOT EVER FORCE ME !!!

sigh, sometime my words might be bit over ... apologize to my friend ...

CNY

CNY just around the corner wheeee ^^

like the feeling of this season haha ... just back from work =.= scene from Giant, this year of CNY seem not welcoming ... people consume lesser and lesser, year by year.... wonder how would it be 10 year later ... anyway i'm still enjoying it haha , i love the feel like the air full with CNY mood
wakakaka

EmO...

忽然很想学会读心术!!! 看透别人和自己的心(因为最近也不懂自己要怎样...)

想要的得不到手;
想说的说不出口;
想做的也难得心应手!!!! 唉~~~

在自己的思路里迷路了...思绪里总有迷雾,
希望快些找到指路明灯或个伴,
已不想独自在雾里摸索出路.

正害怕!!在逃避!!
须坚强!!要镇定!!

emo emo ...

cincai post ... ^^

well well well ... been lazy again now-a-day , *sigh*

when will you change ???? stop being like that !!!
fine ... i will do a bit of math tonight k??

wasted lots of time ....

guilty ...

feeling guilty now .... =.= waste my weekend again ... plan dint go smoothly as planed

Lol ... its too many temptation around me ... eshh need to train myself how to focus or concentrate ... trying to do so ...

what the .....

Argh ... been lazy again .... what a waste .... din spend my weekend for study ... NEVER MIND, i will try my best ... be the Best ... ^^

只是一场游戏,输了... 却又很不甘心
我会变强的!!

其实

其实我好想对你说说:"其实我...."

其实是为什么呢??是因为我太渴望 ... 吗??

希望你能看到....也知道,其实我_ _ _, _ _ _ ...

不开心

明天就开课了... 唉,2010 肯定不容易挨过的=.= 不过也算吧,09年也太不开心了!
往事总爱拿刀往我心割...

那种感觉又回来了,是迷惘?感觉很空白 ... 不知为何,很不开心... 或许因为刚才的小事故??
你们都不了解我要些甚么!! 原来长期被逼做自己不喜欢的事是那么的难受... 很想回到中学时那青涩的时期,可是要拥有现在的智慧,因为...已学会了珍惜,和解决问题了吧?
想挽留某些人或东西,想改已做的错误...

开始不甘于平凡,
几难熬,我都会要等到雨后的晴天...
会想要攀到上流社会,要有名有权有势有利!!!!
我知道我不是个 A星 的人,
但我要,
我也会,
我一定会努力做个,
至少做个 A- 的,
在每一件事,
每一个人面前!!

有些事进行得如预期中...
但是预期中的困难...
是可喜还是可悲呢??

2nd post of 2010

Hey guys , here some photo on new year eve ... got some photo from others ^^v

but its also reminding me bout school going to reopen soon T.T ... hope i can get what i want this year ...
ok ... just a short update cuz of boring lol

2010 HappY New yeaR

Its a brand new year ... wheeeeeeeee
went to Sunway for countdown just now... hehe first time ever in my life

really had lot of fun ^^ ... although kena spray Kaw Kaw >.<

Saw something funny just... after playing , planed to go mamak yam cha but there was fulled !! ... =.= what to do, though go 7-11 buy thing... also "bao pang"(full) lol 7-11 also fulled ?? 0.o ... then went to KFC cause there looks like having some places ... but once we step in, lol same thing happened , we just fit our self at the playground inside it XD .

THIS IS the happiest new year eve i have in my 18 years life time ^^v ...

well , i wish I could have some photo to share but too bad, my phone camera too "lauYa" ... dint have camera belongs with me also ...T.T

anyway, Happy new year to everyone ... welcome , 2010 >.<